21/9/08

Haiz....
My supervisor going to back soon...
I think next week, I can meet her up d...
so scare...
if she asks me a lot of questions, then i am not able to answer it...
How ah???
getting worries....and dunno what should i do...
even that survey also i think i already finish around 70% lor...
still have 30%....after that, have to check back all the grammar mistake and so on leh...
Haiz...
Am i able to finish it??
with this kind of blur and blur and blur mind...
Haiz...
My god...
before that, because of some matter, i am totally no mood to do anythings...
now better already...but seem like a bit late d...
now still blogging...so u know how worst i am...
haha:)
dunno lor...gambate la...

20-9-08 (tarot gathering)

Today went to the cari Tarot gathering...
haha:)
I met them, all very young...around 20...
I think i am the oldest among them....
haiz...

Normal lor...
i still very quiet in during the gathering session...
wahaha:)

Around 1.30pm i reached, then we having our very first gathering at Gasoline (加油站）
what a ...noise place...
I dislike that place...
very noise and very dark...
i cant suit myself into that place for any tarot session la...
I love bright place to do my tarot reading...
wahaha:)
anyway, as usual, tarot gathering surely need to help ppl do some tarot reading...
I used my new card OH-card to read, and also my rider waite tarot deck...
haha:)
someone had given me some comments on my tarot reading...
Haiz...
He said i dun have strong individual ideals on tarot reading...
wahaha:)
anyway, really thanks for his comments...
he did pointed out my problem...
coz i have get used to read my tarot according their situation...
and giving them some advises to them...
I have no power on prediction...wahaha:)

Other things, i feel in this gathering is...
for those have many experiences, they did have their really strong belief on tarot and how to duel with them...
very very strong!!! till wanna using that to influence people's mind...
for me, i still follow the traditional ways...
I believed that raide waite card have his own meaning and also can have many meanings...
why i said so, because we can based on the original meaning, after that think for suitable explanation to the situation accordingly....
That is how beautiful about the tarot card...
I hope that everyone can uses their own own to describe it and learn it...
It will be fun and you will earn more from it...

Another things i wish to mention here is I did help a person do that tarot reading...
i found out he got some personal problem...(quite serious)
Hope that, he can overcomes all those things very soon...
I think he is a nice boy...
Anyway, i am not really familiar with him, so i couldn't understand why he facing all these...
but i still hope he will be all right...
haha:)
aiya...
life already so suffering...why still searching problems???
Think positively then everything will be just fine...
right??
haha:) I also dunno....

梁静茹 - 我决定

梁静茹 - 我决定

坏习惯 维持好几年
每次 被你伤了 装作没感觉
在一起久了 什麼都随便了
心 就这样慢慢 被忽略

连要回家都看你心情
什麼都是你说了才算
夜凉如水我忽然清醒
体贴还不如一些任性
请让我一个人走路回去　
我说我可以就是可以
你 真的不用表现担心
就省省力气
我决定不再等你决定　
我决定今夜想想自己
我 决定偶尔也试著去 怀疑
是否你的决定我都只能 同意
我不怕 这样的结局
至少 该怎麼做 我自己决定
再如何伤心 都最后一次了
天 在破晓之后 最美丽

同个路口同一片天空
发现我已不会舍不得
在终於释怀的那一刻
找回了久违的快乐
请让我一个人走路回去　
我说我可以就是可以
你 真的不用表现担心
就省省力气
我决定不再等你决定　
我决定不再等待续集
我 决定要在天亮之前 冷静
让所有情节从此冻结在 这里

就让我一个人走路回去　
我说我可以就是可以
你 真的不用表现担心
就省省力气
我决定不再等你 决定
我决定不再等待 续集
我 决定要在天亮之前 告别

(梁静茹) 满满的都是爱

梁静茹 满满的都是爱


Always Open Your Heart 大开天窗

打个结 绑起来 就分不开
靠着你 不小心 就飞起来
去滑翔 去冲浪 让太阳晒
热带鱼统统游过来

只要跟着你 就很放心
放了一百二十颗心
只要想到你就很开心
哦满天都是小星星

满满的都是爱 想不到那么快
遇见你什么都说出来
谁叫我就是爱
爱你的一点点呆
很难不被你打败
满满的都是爱 像香槟满出来
我的爱像气泡飘起来
地球转得很快
心脏快要跳出来 想要逃也逃不开

桃红色 让心情 都好起来
粉水晶 让爱情 都亮起来
敞蓬车 跑得快 昨天拜拜
跟着你现在到未来

只要跟着你 就很放心
二十四小时都不腻
只要想到你 就很开心
哼我最爱的Melody

满满的都是爱 想不到那么快
遇见你什么都说出来
谁叫我就是爱
爱你的一点点呆
很难不被你打败
满满的都是爱 像香槟满出来
我的爱像气泡飘起来
地球转得很快
心脏快要跳出来 想要逃也逃不开

给我彩虹白日梦
甜甜蜜蜜和闹哄哄
打开天空对我说
爱就像蜜蜂嗡嗡嗡 嗡~

满满的都是爱 想不到那么快
遇见你什么都说出来
谁叫我就是爱
爱你的一点点呆
很难不被你打败
满满的都是爱 像香槟满出来
我的爱像气泡飘起来
地球转得很快 心脏快要跳出来
想要逃也逃不开
地球转得很快 心脏快要跳出来
想要逃也逃不开

15/9/08

Actually i really hope someday i can keep anything that i predicted by tarot in some place.
So i can check it on future, see whether how it accurates...haha:)
Anyway, you know la...use tarot to predict, normally is something that maybe dun want ppl know it...
haha:)
so about that, i dun wish to explain or written out how the card show...some maybe i will explain...haha:)
maybe if you want to know, you may go ahead find it out...
but i know, impossible!!! who will so free to find it out...haha:)



This is one of them...i just get it....still fresh...
If you got experiences, then u will noticed that this is about relation...
haha:)

Haiz...
impossible keep on draw until get the card or the thing i want...
anyway...
hope everything will be just fine...
if really bad, then hope it passes away soon....
Gambate la....


请原谅我再次感性两下！哈哈~~
今天有个人问了我！
你羡慕过什么人？通常羡慕一个人都因为那人具有你所没有的！
我想了想，当时回答他的是没有啦！
然后，感觉上其实也有咯！
我好像很羡慕人家有很多好朋友，有疼自己的家人！
我也有很疼我的家人啦！
那好朋友呢？也有啊！
那为什么羡慕人家呢？
可是就真得很羡慕！虽然我自己也是有咯，可是有些时候，不时有人很喜欢听我讲咯！
可能我的故事太沉闷了吧？
还是我的朋友的故事比较精彩！哈哈~~
自己好逊色喔~~
生病的时候也希望有人关心！
还是我太长生病了？哈哈~~
还记得有次，病了3天！哈哈~~
拜六还要去学校的那种！可是。。。还不是这样自己来！
还有坐在那边担心是不是得罪人，陪人讲话！
他就是没有理我病倒死了没有~~
拖到拜一才有好心人在我去看医生~~
也是自己懒啦~~
哈哈~~

虽然说自己有时很糊涂~~
可是真的，有些时候，不能不佩服自己的记忆里！
为什么还记得？
天啊~~
所以不要得罪我~~
我会记得的~~哈哈！！！

就很羡慕别人为什么会有无说不谈的好朋友~
可是我没有~~
算了啦！
这种东西看缘分，对吗？
哈哈~~
加油啦！
不要想太多~~

13/9/08

yeah...tomorrow is mooncake festival.....
i bought a mooncake....
Lavender oh....maybe u all will feel weird...mooncake only ma...
that brand is Lavender ma...nothing special...
but it is special for me...
because this brand is born in JB...(not really sure la...haha:p )
other word is, u only can find this in JB, and this is the one I always eat in JB during moon cake festival...
hehe:)



Beside that i also bough a lovely "feng ling"(paiseh, i dunno what it called in english).
I finally bought it....
coz i really want one since i was very young...
i dunno y, but i love those sound...so i also got one "bell" on my beg...
so when i walk, that bell will "ling ling long long" all the way...wahaha:)
dunno since when, i love this kinds of sound...hehe:)

another thing is this......
table lamp....
haiz...
dunno what happened on me....
haha:)
u know, that lamp cost me rm17.90 but that table lamp which not containing lamp only rm15.90...
i thought whole things wont more than rm30...
but...i just blur before i count it...coz i counted the total price wrongly....
so i accidently bought it...
anyway...
since i bought it...
just let it be...
most important thing is....
it wont burn me....i mean burn the whole house then kills me...
hehe:) TOUCH WOOD.......

旧与新

今天一大早看到friendster寄来的email...
他真得让我跑回去看了下下我以前自己写的东西！
很神奇咯！哈哈！
原来有时候把自己的想法写上去，然后隔了下再看回去，真的会不同咯！
很有感觉！
觉得自己原来经历了这么多事情！
那时候的自己原来有这样多的想法！
哈哈！看回去觉得自己还真得很可爱咯！
有很爽下咯！真得很好玩的想法！
原来以前的自己！跟现在的我没有差咯！
想法，思想还是没有变！
哈哈~~~

讲到新与旧，就让我想到了别的课题！
也跟新与旧有关啦！
就是身边的朋友啦！
我身边的朋友，就可能要扩大自己的朋友圈子吧？
开始想认识多些人！
然后呢？我也不知道？哈哈~~
还用塔罗牌问咯！就问了问人际关系~~
可能我比较敏感吧？
终觉得认识新的朋友是中缘份吧？
可是，当认识，结交到了新的朋友，那旧的呢？
有些时候，拿捏得不好，可能旧的会失去哦！
怎样拿捏呢？不懂？
认命的人就会说“随缘”，不认命的呢？就可能会要嘛就积极联络，要不就会怨人，怨天！
那换个角度看，被人遗弃的旧朋友呢？
他们应该怎么样呢？
哈哈。。。
如果是我呢，老实说我会经历一段漫长的自我治疗期！
我也不知道我会做出什么事啦~~
只是心里会特别的难受，心中会出现很多的“为什么？？”
然后，度过了，偶尔还会想想啦！
可是就可能没有什么关系了吧？
换句话说“彻底死心！” 就不会太在意，然后没有感觉！哈哈~~
也不是说会到绝交那种啦！
就不会再对我造成任何影响了！

我觉得朋友就像一本书！
没有翻倒书的最后一页，你永远都不会知道结局是怎样的！
哈哈~~
而我这本书好像需要多一点的耐心！
因为我被动咯,闷骚！哈哈~~
而且，知道我的人都应该会发现，书里都会有一段恐怖情节！哈哈~~
没有耐心的人，通常都会翻到！
然后不知觉得就被丢出书外！
过后，很难再有机会翻开书里的内容了！
因为已经被封印！
可能我贯彻的“一次不忠百次不用”发挥效用吧？
哈哈~~真的是难搞~~
不管怎样我还是很平凡得说~~
没有什么人愿意花这样多的时间来陪我疯得啦！

今天真的是难过！
被学生嫌弃，说我老！！！
然后又被人说丑~~~~
真的是：“又老又丑，人老珠黄!”

11/9/08

Haha:)
early morning today but feel angry....
everyday have this kind of mood is really.....not a good thing.

Become a tutor at UM already 9 months...
wah....such a long time...
haiz....
sometime I really don't know how to scold students...haha:)
especially all those foreigner...
I really don't know how they feel...
are they feel very proud because they can enter to University of Malaya???
until no need to study or no need to do tutorial??
they feel that they are customer??
so no need to listen to me??
I really getting angry with those students....
If you really feel you are great...then OK....
Actually....after wrote out all these, i feel much more better d...hehe:)

I just want to say that, I scold them yesterday...haha:)
Because at that moment, I felt that, they no done well in test.
they still wanna show me their anger or unhappy face to me....
really.....
anyway...
I think this is my very last time to nag them....
after this, no more gua....

I know i love nagging....but some of the person not really like to be nagged....
hehe....:p

Haiz....i think another problem also because of me gua...
I really....blur...and i dun think i teach clearly and really make them understand...
sometime, I blur till suddenly don't know how to do...
haha:)
come back and think....then i get the answer....
then teach again on next tutorial....
apa la, saya ni....
how to make me not blur ah??
so hard...

6/9-7/9/2008

very angry....!!!!
I feel like I have be cheated!!!!!!!!
I think I should mean Saturday(6/9/08) whole day is not my day...
But I think I should write it out completely...
So i still need to be patient....(ANGRY)

Firstly, I feel that, I really good...haha:)
Because I went to some place I never been before...and that place is really.....
There are a lot of shops there...but only 5 to 6 rent out....
Can you imagine how far away from the city???
My goodness....
I need to take taxi go inside some more...after that, i started regret...
(luckily our lovely Mr calvin pang came and rescue me, thanks a lot)
How I going to go out from this place, once i have done???
pengsan...

But that place is quite near to Sri Petaling LRT station.
It just cost me rm3.20 by taxi...
Quite cheap until that taxi driver want to send me to the place passionately, even I told him I can handle it myself.
After I finally get down from the taxi, I started my own searching!!
Do you know how small the signboard is???
smaller than A4 size paper lor....
my goodness....how i going to find this place with this small signboard???
I asked the shop keeper at another shop...(there were only 4 shops opened...)
That shop keeper ...lagi teruk...
he told me, here is Jln 15/155B (anyway I am searching for jln 13/155B).
As i know, i saw the road board, that why I asked that taxi driver drove in...
Anyway... I successfully found that place....with that small little tiny signboard...
Actually the main reason i found that place was I follow the house's plate....haiz...

After that, i quickly have my lunch...
another story begin...
I dunno why the boss and her mom(i guess the person should be her mom la...not really sure) can fight in front of the shop....
small fight luckily....
My goodness...
and the soup was...so salty....i think salt's price have dropped dramatically....
haha:)

my story really long...haven't step into the main story yet...ohh my...

After that, i went to the place and start my learning journey...
Firstly, I thought the price RM480 included all material and also that tarot deck...
who knows...
that price was not including the tarot deck...my goodness....
so i decided to buy the deck since i need it....
RM160...so expensive... i am sure i will go and check it out the price...
see whether i been cheated or not.....
then is that cloth which to use to cover the place which i need to using the tarot deck...
it cost me another rm18...
haiz...
Until now...i still thinking...expect the tarot deck...
everything was....NOT WORTH........
i shouldn't attend the class....
It doesn't bring anything useful for me...
so sien....

That teacher also very show off d lo...
Once i came in, he already wanna show his tarot reading power...
He asked one of his student come out and do the reading with a seeker...
(I called all the "costumer" as seeker...My very first tarot teacher who really nice and willing to share told me this)
But i think his student no yet familiar with the card...
she was not really can bring out the issue and explain to the seeker...
Anyway...that new teacher show his power and i think his explanation makes his seeker satisfy lo...

Actually i think he is a aroma therapy treatment expert lo...
As you all know, tarot is an very useful tools on healing or prediction...
many person even psychologist also using this to do the healing part...more understanding about the person la...

Anyway, the whole process taken a lot of time...
In fact, the class started at 2pm till 8pm...
but....
he took more than that....
i saw outside was getting darker....
then i feel getting frustrated...
He realized how i feel i guess...
Only that he started to teach faster....(can you imagine how fast he was?? he explains the same things twice!!!!!!)

even when i back, he still haven't finish...
my god....
luckily dear Calvin came and rescue my....
THANKS A LOT......

another things is....
he love to use the "perfume"??
I don't know how to call it...
so smelly...
As you know, my nose is quite sensitive with some smell....
in the end, I cant take it anymore...
and "ha qiu" in front of him....
that "perfume" he called can bring love...
haha:)
so i think i got no love lo...that y...
no really like that smell...
hehe:)

I still remember, before i leave, he told me that...
they will have gathering...
asked me to join...
haha:)
i told him, you just tell me when you all confirm la...
then next day(sunday 7/9/08) i get his email already...
so fast...
anyway, he told me got free one aroma colour tarot card reading for me....(originally cost rm80)
haha:)
I replied him as, i not interested...Please benefit someone else....hehe:)
about the gathering....
haiz...
i dunno...
i just replied as when you confirm the date and time only inform me la...
Not really sure can attend or not....
however, after all quite unhappy experinces...
i dont think i will go again lo...
some more that place so....
pengsan....


(This is that OH-card...)

4-9-08

These few days, keep on raining...
I think this is the reason why people feel sleepy...haha:)
I am obviously searching for a good excuse for me....
I slept at my office....not really nice but....still okay...
haha :p
I still on my way searching idea to complete my very 1st introduction or i should say it as literature review....
Haiz... lot of research papers, really no ideas how to start with, and no idea how i going to do the summary about it...
these few days, i took out all useful books and notes came out...
One of the important book is....




So amazing...I need to use this to complete my writing...
Actually, this book is mainly used on guides the person who need to use latex on typing...

another words mean, I need to use this program to write out my introduction...

PS: This is my supervisor's book...haha:)

No more Microsoft word...Haha:)


Well, talking about my research. It reminds me something that just happened...
A news... USM has awarded APEX....
if i am not written down wrongly...
It mean, UM has lost to another University again...haha:)
anyway, Congrat to USM....
USM going to receive a lot of funding....it means money...
but quite funny that is, according to the news, they are not judging by research quality or so on...
They let USM won because of the proposal...which shown that, USM ready to change...
haha:)
anyway...it really doesn't matter....
just some politic matter...
for us, as a student, what we want is....graduated and get a job....
that it....easy, simple....