31/10/2008

haiz...
sick for 3 days already...
today finally recovered 80%...
wont feel so sleepy and also can breathe easily...
haha:)

feel boring....i am sitting on my chair and facing my laptop now...
and start thinking some silly questions....
haha:)

i just realized that..i trapped...
i trapped inside a circle...
my life is keeping on recycling....
what happened before, it is happened again...
haiz...

but this time, i tried to relax a bit...
try to do not think that much...
i know i still the same...i just trying to avoid this kind of bad thinking...
but it do cause me a lot of energy...
haha:)

my moon at cancer...it show my thinking is hyper sensitive and deep inside my heart is desperately need more caring...
but i am Sagittarius...need freedom and independent...
haha:) contradicting my moon...
haiz... it makes me... so different...

i couldn't accept changing maybe...
I scared when something had changed
but i also scared it was not changes at all....
it means there is no improvement....

dun u all think what u done on me...
i wont feels it...
even small little thing i also can sense it...
as long as i am not blur during that time....:p

I know some of you treat me differently maybe...
I know some of you showing off in front of me...
I know some of you wish to show ur concern about me lately...
I know some of you are different already...
But i think i will keep it on my heart...
dun wish to say it out...
coz i feel bored when facing and discussing this kind of problem...
there is no conclusion one...
because all of these...It happened too naturally already...
then i have to make my adjustment according to the situation....
I couldnt ask you to follow my step...
i couldnt ask you to do not change...
i couldnt ask you to continue be friend with me...
I know there are too many person outside are 100 times better than me...
wahaha:)

suddenly it reminded me on the movie "10 promises with my dog".
Try to sit on another person situation and think as what he/she might thinking...
then u will more understanding...
i would like to be one of the person who more understanding...
So i wont be so rude or wont be so selfish...

Gambate to myself...
:)