30-9-09

每个人都有自己的个性，

个性使然，有的时候可能会让自己作出很多很傻的事情。

很奇怪，对吗？

有的时候，那些没有个性的人，没有主见的人，都会被人指着鼻子说：“你应该对自己更了解些”。

可是，个性不分明，没有主见不好吗？

我不喜欢他，我觉得他做这些事情，很讨厌！我觉得他很糟糕！

很熟悉吧？每个人的心理都有一把尺，这个不行，那个不能~~

总是把自己的“理念”，觉得对的事情，放在日常生活中！

就好像，他应该积极些，怎么这么懒？（大概是些急躁的人说的话）

另外，好像他怎么连这点小事都做不好？还是说怎么这么明显的错误都会犯？

怎么他就不能再细心点？再仔细些？

哈哈~~

看来再写下去，有人就要抗议了！

“怎么总针对我写？”~~~

哈哈~~

27-9-09

Back to JB, my dearest hometown for 1 week...

So enjoy....haha;)

Then after reach KL, straight away go for short shopping and also watched a movie...

G-force in 3D...

Compare with the last 3D movie i watched, it was really improved a lot...

but still... If you plan to watch 3D, i still think that anime or cartoon based movie is better...

haha....

After that, i went back my room...

i saw the new housemate...

Omg....

i was shock with the "new" washing machine near to the door...

then i go to my room, while opening my door lock,

the new housemate came out...

ask for online pass key (security password), she mentioned she needed to online now...

i was thinking, i no even step to my room, can you please let me have a rest???

anyway, i also forgot...

so i told her, i am not sure...

then another thing is, her tattoo and her boyfriend was scary...

I do not know why, the impression that she gave me was not good....

Suddenly i feel, it is so...

why since we rent out, we can choose a good rental...

not just simply let other person in...

maybe the ex-housemate was urgently wanna move out...

so she din choose correctly...

another thing is, the ex-housemate even left the important document (our house's rental agreement) OUTSIDE...

can u imagine???

Really...speechless.........

why can have such person so... irresponsible???

since u moving out, u still have to tell us, who is moving is and where is the important document left?

so that, i can collect back it...

she just left it and leave...omg...

anyway...

From this case, i can see another "fact"...

not a happy post...

getting sienz when ppl keep telling me, i am rich........
In fact, yes, tutor salary is quite good pay...
but, fellowship (scholarship) also quite nice...
maybe u only need to teach few hours, u can get the pay...
same thing, u no need to pay all the fees....

working as a tutor in ISM, need to teach, need to mark paper, need to invigilate, need to help department organize the events...
omg...
but it compares with private universities or colleges really is really better...
because we r expect to doing research (own master or PHD) while we r doing our tutor's works...
but work at outside, they are expecting u work for the school and benefit the school...so most of them will having heavy workload...
so ???
maybe some will say previous year or before than they get low pay in tutorship but have many workloads...
how to compare??
now KL's life cost is getting higher, of course we need more salary but in fact, we r taking same amount...
number of students decreasing...so class become smaller...but i think soon tutor position will be canceled...
It just depends on when only...

seriously, we work that why we have the salary...
doesn't mean we sit there can get the sponsor...
so compare with the scholars holder...who is richer???
i hate to telling anyone how much i having per month, explain and explain why....
especially regarding to my works...
so many subjects i am teaching, so many things i have to read...
who will pity on me???
maybe u will say i deserve it....
i dont care what other person think....
but
do not simply judge and comment publicly if u r not sure...
for teasing, i can accept....other than that...sorry....
i definitely will defend for myself...

10 may 2009

Haiz...
saturday and sunday~~~
think about how to type the matrix into latex...
it spent me 2 days...
did anyone can help me???haha...
i guess no....
anyway, i did learn a lot...

I need some quiet day~~~
stop bother me with other things....
i need some time to think about my things my research~~~
haiz...

Dun think that u can kill ur time with me...
sorry...got no time for u...
just me alone at the moment....

7 may 2009

haiz...
suddenly got lot of things come together and need to do...
haha;)
these few days a bit sienz...
maybe i had given most of the person that i am free...
so when i really busy, they couldnt feel it...
angry lo me...
disturb me during my work, can u imagine few eye staring at u wondering when u r going to end ur phone call and do ur work???
but my friend wont realized...
keeping on talking about something which is not important at all!!!!

need to go out while i am typing the notes, need to entertain whoever knocked my door person!!!
ohh....
sitting inside office, staying at UM is not a good things!!!
definitely make my mood become worse and worse!!!!
why when i was free, i hoping someone comes and talk to me, there is no one....
everyone will telling me that, they are not free...
why when u r free hoping me to entertain u and i need to entertain u and give u the responds that u want???

i only can say human being is selfish one...
haha:)
when i am really need help, where are you??
the person said wanna help me one...
surely will said he/she is busy!!!
haiz....
what the point giving me empty promise??????

27 apr 09

today...really tired....sleepy and boring till....
haha:)
this is very 1st time i experience like that...
sometime, i really feel tiring...
dun wish to entertain ppl, dun wish to smile for nothing in front of person....
really hard to me....
i really wanna just be myself sometime...
haiz...
but during this time, the person beside me always is not my friend...
not the one i can share my true feeling with them.......
haiz....
really tired already.......
dun wish to fight with someone or thinking on how to make someone get interested with me...
it is a very hard task for me....
i want to rest!!! i want to be myself all the time.................
can i??????????????

20 apr 2009

夜幕渐渐低垂，我依然在等待。
等待一个可能，等待一个不可能的可能~~
天啊，奇迹几时才会降临在我的身上？
你是否已放弃了我？
还是我不配拥有这奇迹？
为什么你没回应？

我期待，我祈求！
愿我的真心祈祷，能得到你的热切回应~~
愿我的真心祈求，能得到你的帮助。

(ps:乱写一通！）

when i can back to JB??
maybe this week??
haha....
everything when talk about those KL persons, i will start envy them...
dunno why...
if u want to say i have get used the life in KL...
i can say "no"...
many places i havent been there before, many things i havent try before...
i getting tired at here...
How to be strong when i was alone here??
many things need to settle by myself...
there is no one around me or no one to help me...
seriously, i dunno what happen to me...
but when i seriously need help, dunno why, no one is free to help me...
for example, like when i was in KTAR...
huge rain over there...u can imagine i cant even step to outside even though i owned a umbrella...
is really big...
what i can do is wait...
i call for help...but no one around me...
i have no car, but next next monday need to invigilate till 10.30pm...
ohh...gosh...
can someone helps me???
haiz....
sometime own a car is convenient but...the expense is too high for me...
i cant even afford it....haha:)
Pray hard!!! hopefully next time i will be more lucky...

希望什么是永恒不变的？

Haha:)
just came back from tesco...
shopping and bought some necessary things...hehe:) food lor....

actually i heard it or i read it??
i forget already...
i read it inside a book i guess....
it was a small little tale inside this story book, it is talking about life...
in this story, the main character has done something right....
he owned a wish...
the god said u may keep one thing forever in your life...
other word, one thing on his life will not be changed forever...

so if you are the guy, what will u choose??
u want ur love forever last???
or you want your friendship forever last???
i think this will be an interesting question...
in our life, our things keep on changing...
no matter what...
the friend beside you now, will he/she be friend with you forever???
or maybe will separate after you change your work or graduated....
so....
what you want to keep it until end of your life??

for me...
i really dont know also...
currently maybe is friendship....
but anyway, one thing i can very sure is...
my parent, my brother and sister will be my family forever....
no matter how...hehe:)

12 March 2009

I havent blog for such a long time already...

maybe i have too many things to do...

as usual, preparing tutorials at UM and doing my research...

haiz...these few days, really been such a hard days...

not really happy...

hopefully my bad luck will gone soon....

not so many peoples know what happened la...

i dont want to share also...hehe:)

too sien already...

i just want to say my luck is not that good...

i also doing part time at ktar...

8 hours totals....

as u know, actually i am not interested with the money...

i want to teach there because i like to try how other colleges conducting tutorials and teaching...

i chosen ktar...because i know how to go there....haha:)

i have getting bored sitting inside UM's office waiting for nothing and couldnt done anything...

i want to go out!!!

have some different experinces...

that why...

that money earned also for extra saving...

not rich as other person said...

i am NOT RICH!!!

later on, 25 mac need to attend tutor course...

dunno can really attend or not...:(

who going to understand how suffering i am???

haiz...

3/2/09

happy CNY...
This trip back JB, i finally make a decision!
I decided to start trying to use window vista.
My sister bought a original window vista since she was studies at TARC, but until now it still keeps in my house.
So i decided to have a little try on it...
but...quite disappointing me...
It "eats" almost all my hard disk memory...
It is horrible...
then i decided remove it...
reinstall back to xp...
haha:) upgrading to 3G ram also cant feed vista's "stomach"...
haha:)

21-1-09

getting nearer to the Chinese new year already.
now i really feel like wanna back home more than anything...
if possible, i want to back by today...
rest and doing nothing at home...haha:)

my house at ss2 there still unable to online...
haha:)
how stupid streamyx system is...
haiz....

suddenly i have been called for an KPI "interview"...
what is that?? anyway, become a tutor need to fulfill some workload,
not only teaching...
getting bored at UM already...
so many things need to fulfill...feel like no freedom...
in fact, i still doing my master...
I think that the main purpose is to finish up my degree...
haiz...
but now it not seen become like that...
i really dont know, what is the purpose attending the seminar or conference that i am not familiar with???
it is not helpful at all...
anyway, it might helps me in future...
but now...I still thinking it was really wasting my times...
wahaha:)
even through i used the time to sleep and shopping....
wahaha:)
so 38....

i still wondering what should i write here before Chinese New year....
now i got new material to write already....
MY SALARY!!!
haha:)
haiz...i didnt get my january salary, other colleagues already get it...
for whole january i only get rm76.69...
haha:) i even can memory it very correctly...
this the money i get after deduced the EPF~~
i think because i just renewed my current contract...
that why they still processing on it...
hopefully they able to done it right before the new year...
then i can buy somethings back to my home...:p
anyway, i believe that it wont be possible for UM...
most possibilities is....i will only get January salary when February salary bank in...
i mean it will comes together with February salary