27 apr 09

today...really tired....sleepy and boring till....
haha:)
this is very 1st time i experience like that...
sometime, i really feel tiring...
dun wish to entertain ppl, dun wish to smile for nothing in front of person....
really hard to me....
i really wanna just be myself sometime...
haiz...
but during this time, the person beside me always is not my friend...
not the one i can share my true feeling with them.......
haiz....
really tired already.......
dun wish to fight with someone or thinking on how to make someone get interested with me...
it is a very hard task for me....
i want to rest!!! i want to be myself all the time.................
can i??????????????

20 apr 2009

夜幕渐渐低垂，我依然在等待。
等待一个可能，等待一个不可能的可能~~
天啊，奇迹几时才会降临在我的身上？
你是否已放弃了我？
还是我不配拥有这奇迹？
为什么你没回应？

我期待，我祈求！
愿我的真心祈祷，能得到你的热切回应~~
愿我的真心祈求，能得到你的帮助。

(ps:乱写一通！）

when i can back to JB??
maybe this week??
haha....
everything when talk about those KL persons, i will start envy them...
dunno why...
if u want to say i have get used the life in KL...
i can say "no"...
many places i havent been there before, many things i havent try before...
i getting tired at here...
How to be strong when i was alone here??
many things need to settle by myself...
there is no one around me or no one to help me...
seriously, i dunno what happen to me...
but when i seriously need help, dunno why, no one is free to help me...
for example, like when i was in KTAR...
huge rain over there...u can imagine i cant even step to outside even though i owned a umbrella...
is really big...
what i can do is wait...
i call for help...but no one around me...
i have no car, but next next monday need to invigilate till 10.30pm...
ohh...gosh...
can someone helps me???
haiz....
sometime own a car is convenient but...the expense is too high for me...
i cant even afford it....haha:)
Pray hard!!! hopefully next time i will be more lucky...